Yes.. Remarkably, I am blissfully happy.. Been like this for two to three days straight and I have never been so unremorseful..
Simply because while everyone around me are having love issues I, on the other hand, am thriving on this beautiful emotion. It's intoxicating. It's silly. It's unbelievably consuming... I can't even get my head straight, I simply am happy...
Happy because I came to terms with a lot of harsh realities. Happy because I have resolved within me the stuff that has got me into knots for months now. Happy beacuse for the first time, I am trully honest to myself of what I have, being contented with it, enjoying it rather than frustrating myself over for what isn't there.. happy because I choose to be. Happy because I WANT it to be.. And am making faces right now, even I find myself weird.....
Hahahahahahahahahahahaha
On a more serious note, I am happy with myself right now. I woke up one day realizing that I have more than what I ask for. I can be brutally unreasonable. I can be unbelievably difficult. In more ways than one, one could say that I can be and am a total ass about a lot of things.. It gets the best of me at times and somehow lingers... Funny because usually I don't dwell. I just don't but yeah, even the smartest person has their moments..
I am inspired. I am in love and I am loved.. I cannot begin to describe how beautiful what I feel right now. I am at the verge of doing cartwheels and jumping up and down.. I just am.. I can't even write decently about it...
Well then.. let me get back to all of this when the euphoria has mellowed...
I hope I don't break my neck though..
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Priviledges
Great things in life, as most would say, are free..
But most are aware that everything has a price. Not currency, but to a certain degree of value. Emotions, ideas, feelings - all of these are attained with a ceratin amount of effort. A certain amount of importance or relevance. Thus, these shouldn't be taken for granted.. having relationships are a priviledge. Being happy is a priviledge. Being alive is a priviledge. Oftentimes, we make the wrong notion that without exchange of currency that it has no value nor it is free. Currncy or money for that matter is simply a piece of paper that you can wipe your ass with. Its basic component is no different from the ones that we actually use...
Like Forgiving and Forgetting... these two are priviledges...
Its disturbing to know that this saying has become a passe' for those who simply can't and couldn't deal with the harsh realities of Life. The complexities of situations that require intellect, character and conviction.. Forgiveness and forgetting are both self- serving ideologies... It doesn't so much influence the recieving end but rather serves the purpose of closure and severity of the conflict at hand. I can't help but criticize but to forgive and to forget is simply, if not catastrophically, stupid..
Too harsh..
Forgiveness requires remorse. Forgiveness requires realization. Forgiveness requires humility and acceptance of the wrong doing.. In the truest concept of the word, only a higher being is capable of Forgiveness... only God is trully capable of forgiveness..The sanctity of Forgiveness shold not be made as a patriotic excuse to present courage. Forgiveness is nota t-shirt one decides to wear for the day and throw out in the next...
Forgetting.. This defies the very essence of living. We only live ever so briefly to manage to erase or forget details and memories of our borrowed time.. Good or bad, beautiful or ugly - memories are memories. They make us. They help us better ourselves. They stand as reminders of good times, bad times that we may never allow to happen again, beautiful ones to inspire us and ugly ones to shake us up and wake us up..
To the weak mind, forgetting is a sanctuary. To deny oneself of addressing the situation. To run and hide and seek comfort in pretending that it never happened.. Forgetting is the last defense of the weak spirit..
That is why I don't forgive - I deal with the situation. I compromise and meet every relationship half-way. I am no God to bestow forgiveness. I am no preacher of the church. I am a human being. Conflict arise because of our differences, it's a given. Each one of us is different from one another and are bound to have different takes on a lot of things.. Ther is no wrong doing in that aspect. We deal. We manage. We compromise. We make a choice. That is the way of the strong mind..
People speak of things that they do not know.. I pity those people..
But then again, to extend pity IS a choice...
But most are aware that everything has a price. Not currency, but to a certain degree of value. Emotions, ideas, feelings - all of these are attained with a ceratin amount of effort. A certain amount of importance or relevance. Thus, these shouldn't be taken for granted.. having relationships are a priviledge. Being happy is a priviledge. Being alive is a priviledge. Oftentimes, we make the wrong notion that without exchange of currency that it has no value nor it is free. Currncy or money for that matter is simply a piece of paper that you can wipe your ass with. Its basic component is no different from the ones that we actually use...
Like Forgiving and Forgetting... these two are priviledges...
Its disturbing to know that this saying has become a passe' for those who simply can't and couldn't deal with the harsh realities of Life. The complexities of situations that require intellect, character and conviction.. Forgiveness and forgetting are both self- serving ideologies... It doesn't so much influence the recieving end but rather serves the purpose of closure and severity of the conflict at hand. I can't help but criticize but to forgive and to forget is simply, if not catastrophically, stupid..
Too harsh..
Forgiveness requires remorse. Forgiveness requires realization. Forgiveness requires humility and acceptance of the wrong doing.. In the truest concept of the word, only a higher being is capable of Forgiveness... only God is trully capable of forgiveness..The sanctity of Forgiveness shold not be made as a patriotic excuse to present courage. Forgiveness is nota t-shirt one decides to wear for the day and throw out in the next...
Forgetting.. This defies the very essence of living. We only live ever so briefly to manage to erase or forget details and memories of our borrowed time.. Good or bad, beautiful or ugly - memories are memories. They make us. They help us better ourselves. They stand as reminders of good times, bad times that we may never allow to happen again, beautiful ones to inspire us and ugly ones to shake us up and wake us up..
To the weak mind, forgetting is a sanctuary. To deny oneself of addressing the situation. To run and hide and seek comfort in pretending that it never happened.. Forgetting is the last defense of the weak spirit..
That is why I don't forgive - I deal with the situation. I compromise and meet every relationship half-way. I am no God to bestow forgiveness. I am no preacher of the church. I am a human being. Conflict arise because of our differences, it's a given. Each one of us is different from one another and are bound to have different takes on a lot of things.. Ther is no wrong doing in that aspect. We deal. We manage. We compromise. We make a choice. That is the way of the strong mind..
People speak of things that they do not know.. I pity those people..
But then again, to extend pity IS a choice...
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
InspiRED
Friendship. Three years..
We have gone that far... What started from three fabulous individuals has now evolved into something greater. Bigger than anyone of us.. What startedas friendship is now a Family..
In every sense of the word. Family.
In the laughter that we shared. In the beers that stood witness to all our pains and tribulations. Drama, action, comedy, tragedy. name it - we have had it.
Some are gone, but never away. Some are far, but not lost. Others have chosen different paths while 
others have remained.. In the tears, in the laughter, in the songs that strongly resonates in our hearts - these are the memories that keep us and pull us together..
others have remained.. In the tears, in the laughter, in the songs that strongly resonates in our hearts - these are the memories that keep us and pull us together..We are the same, yet we thrive in our differences and focus on how we all compliment one another. Every character strength and flaw, each and every one together creates a picture so real and true, and that only time, effort, love and respect could and would ever produce..
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